You have a tremendous lesson for me, Lord,
To strike such a tremendous blow,
To exact such a tremendous price.
He was your gift to me,
A precious, priceless gift,
A rare treasure,
His worth far too valuable to measure.
He was the father of my children,
The fulfillment of my girlhood dreams.
I'm indebted to You, Lord,
For such a generous gift.
But he was never mine to keep.
I had to give him back.
And now I'm selfish.
I don't want his death to be wasted.
I want to wring out every ounce of truth,
Every drop of instruction,
And I want to share what I've learned,
To shout it.
I want to proclaim to everyone
That I'll never be the same.
The hard lessons are never easy.
But now I know that the end result
Is tremendous gain.